August 02, 2007
Ballet Lesson for Today
It's amazing what you learn in the ballet studio. Today, Kat, the instructor, scolded me, during adagio (the first thing you do after bar. It's slow, lyrical, and involves lots of arm movements). There reached a point when I blanked out on the next movement, I guess. Apparently, when that happend she told me that I stopped for and made a strange face and put my hand on my shoulder.
"It's very obvious" she explained "when you make a mistake because you stop etc... Don't do that. Own your mistakes. If you make one don't stop, move forward. Relax, if I was hiring you I wouldn't reject you because of these little mistakes."
Hmmm...I liked what she said which is rare cause usually ballet instructors just make things more confusing by talking. The second time around I felt so much more relaxed and excited and even when I made an error or didn't quite know if I was doing the movement 100% correctly, I tried not to worry. It was a wonderful recovery.
This episode got me thinking about the fear I have of making mistakes in other aspects of life. Sometimes, I feel that the fear of doing something wrong becomes the driving force in my actions. For example, I want to be a good daughter, grandaughter, roomate, friend but sometimes I'm scared that I'm not and therefore the actions that precede from me are based on this fear that I'm not doing it right etc... This thinking drowns me in anxiety. Ugh, I know Jesus doesn't wants this. My whole being feels the error and the bondage to this. Set me free..."I was born to love...I'm gonna learn to love without fear...". (O.Rh.)
| By larawalk | 08:34 PM
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Laura you were the best college roomate/friend that I ever had. I remember the tea party with the bears that you created for Suzana. That was love not fear.
Posted by: Amy S. at August 14, 2007 09:55 PM
Ha! I forgot all about that tea party. Love you Ames!
Posted by: Laura at August 15, 2007 11:10 AM
What a lovely post. I really enjoyed this: "Own your mistakes!" What an excellent teacher- she really drew out the best in you!
Posted by: Heidi at August 17, 2007 12:20 AM